If I had to describe the first half of the first month of 2014 in one word it would be: maniacal
Why did I choose that word? Well for one its a an awesome word. Let’s be honest. And its hard to pronounce correctly the first time. But really its because thats how I have felt. Let me try to narrow it down for you in the shortest way possible:
– dealing with my sub-leaser losing keys first day of the year
– officially moving into my apartment
– whilst starting a new job
– sleeping on an air mattress (still happening)
– running back and forth to IKEA, Target, and Lowe’s in attempts to have a function-able living situation (i will post before:after pictures when all is said and done)
– scrubbing mold off air vents, cabinets, walls and floors
– scheduling meetings for potential side jobs
– interviewing for a huge opportunity that I will hopefully share publicly in the near future if all goes well!!
– trying to set time aside to have a life and do things like workout and the occasional..well you know, SIT DOWN AND DO ABSOLUTElY NOTHING.
Did I define the past 15 days correctly?
Don’t get me wrong, I totally am loving the entire process and I usually love staying busy. It makes me feel productive and purposeful. I really find it important to make my apartment homey. I have been working hard to make this a priority. I believe that if you are going to make a place your home, you should make it feel like home; make it feel inviting and welcoming despite how tiny it may be. Yes, my place is little, but somehow I’m okay with that. There is something about it that I love. Maybe it’s being independent, maybe it’s the TLC and effort I’m putting into it which is bringing me closer to it.
I was stressing a lot about it at first. I felt like I was in a hurry to make it look beautiful in a week, even a day. Then I sat down for dinner with a friend and went on one of my venting rants where if were to have recorded myself and rewound it I’d probably look like a psycho and if I were my friend I would have run away….but anyway, he told me to take it easy and take my time because the process is more valuable than the outcome and it will end up looking nicer if you put thought into it as opposed to rushing.
You might think umm duh daniela that’s obvious advice, but sometimes when you’re in the center of the spinning spiral you get so dizzy and lose track of where you are or how fast you’re going and forget to breathe. So for me that was much needed advice and now I feel much better and accepting of the slow process.
So here I go, ready to start the second half of January and ready to go full force (with patience ; ) ) and remember to breathe and enjoy the ride!
Cheers and Be Well!